ITS SUMMER!!
everyone looks forward to it. lounging by the pool. lying in the grass. looking at the clouds. hitting up the closest lemonade stand. going on late night walks and not needing a jacket.
its all fine and dandy and i love it all. but for some reason...
im just not feelin it.
im just not feelin it.
i dont know why. i LOVE summer! but i cant get into the mood. i just spend my days being bored. and for some reason, my creativity is gone.
i HATE it. my creative side usually comes pretty easily. but lately i just havnt had that spark. thats why i havnt written in so long. i cant get in the mood. i want to have it so badly, its like a craving. maybe i need to get away. see something new besides little ole fort wayne. i need a new crowd. my crowds been pretty slim lately anyway. theyre mysteriously out of touch. i dunno. but i need SOMETHING. i need a jumpstart. i just have no clue how to get it.
i HATE it. my creative side usually comes pretty easily. but lately i just havnt had that spark. thats why i havnt written in so long. i cant get in the mood. i want to have it so badly, its like a craving. maybe i need to get away. see something new besides little ole fort wayne. i need a new crowd. my crowds been pretty slim lately anyway. theyre mysteriously out of touch. i dunno. but i need SOMETHING. i need a jumpstart. i just have no clue how to get it.
i want to create. i want to buy a sewing machine. but who knows how much they cost. and i want to paint. i want to draw. i want to color with crayons and make it look like piccasso. i want to write a novel. i want to inspire someone, somewhere, with something. but i dont know how to make it happen. it feels like a vaccume just came and sucked it all outta me. hey hoover give it back!
thats my new mission. figure it all out. get myself straight again. reconnect the dots. listen to some music. make some music. oh geesh practice that damn guitar. make a whole new ashley thats maybe not so new but has been hiding for a while.
ill start tomorrow. er today its 12:06. but i need sleep to juice up the brain.
here goes nothin
i love you!
ashleyy
thats my new mission. figure it all out. get myself straight again. reconnect the dots. listen to some music. make some music. oh geesh practice that damn guitar. make a whole new ashley thats maybe not so new but has been hiding for a while.
ill start tomorrow. er today its 12:06. but i need sleep to juice up the brain.
here goes nothin
i love you!
ashleyy
