would someone like to tell me

why parents enjoy ruining our lives so much?

i really really would like to know.

i have two of the most amazing best friends who just so happen to be army brats.

they've lived everywhere imaginable and move constantly.

during freshman year of highschool their father told them that they wouldnt have to move until after they graduated from highschool.

yay! finally a place to settle down a bit!

yeah. fucking. right.

why are we constantly forced to move? especially after promises to stay are made? we settle down and meet amazing friends and think we wont have to leave them like all of the others. we can finally get close to them and have someone to talk to. but then its all ripped away. promises are broken, friends are lost, arguements are fought, and families are torn apart. it really really isnt fair.

yeah i know that sometimes there isnt any choice. its our parents job and it has control over them. its leave and go on with life or stay and starve. yes its hard to find a new job and all that and its hard to quit and hard to turn down an excellent opportunity for a promotion. but have our parents ever thought of how hard it is on US? yeah sometimes new starts are welcome and good. but not one every two years. its important for us to settle down a bit and give us a chance to discover who we are. we need to slow down and not have to keep starting our lives over and over again.

its not only hard on the people moving, but its hard on all of their friends. i have finally found good friends. ive been skipping around a lot this year to different groups and this is the one i want to be in. this is the group of friends that im being 100% ME. that doesnt happen often at all. we go along with whatever is accepted. when im with my two best friends i dont hide anything. they bring out the best in who i am and help me shine through. not to mention i can have the most fun ever with them. thats how a friendship should be. completely honest.

i cant even begin to think of how life will be after theyre gone. i have a feeling ill be kind of a wanderer after they leave. i cant think of anyone who ive really connected with. all my friends from last year are pretty distant. i have some good ones of course but none that i can be myself with. i guess ill just have to wait and see. wow i really really feel bad for a certain boyfriend of one of the future movers. he was crushed.

i can only hope that the plans fall through. so far its a maybe. but its pretty much a yes since they already have a date and everything. i just really cant believe their dad is breaking his promise to them again. their family is hard enough to live with. i wonder how long itll take for them to live like this.

please oh please pray that they stay

ashleyy