all drab to totally fab

so tennessee was fantastic to say the least

i got to see pretty much everyone i wanted to see, and i had the best time ever with my best friends ever.

aaand i got to see annick! whom i have sadly lost touch with over the years. i kind of forgot how much i loved her with her witty humor and tolerably hilarious mood swings. she really is amazing and im so glad that i ever met her in the first place. we relived the memories of our childhoods and made fun of our newly whorific and scene childhood friend jill. bahahaha. i know that sounds mean but it truly isnt. you have to know the background.

i was soooo glad to get to see janna and alex. i knew of course that i would be and that they were amazing and all that. but i guess i kinda forgot just how amazing they really were. maybe the just get better and better every time i come? all i know is that i cant wait to see them again.

i met my long lost twin!!

her name is marie and were pretty much exactly alike. kinda freaky but really cool. we even look kinda the same. and she makes funny facial expressions that make me laugh. hehe.

i forgot how beautiful maryville really is. i think i overlooked it and took it for granted when i lived there. i LOVE the brick. its everywhere. and it gives everything a warm, hospitable, homey feel. i love it. and i discovered downtown maryville on my visit. i never really took a chance to look at all that was there. i pretty much just drove on through and didnt look around. theres this place called Tomato Head that is absolutely delicious. its one of those little trendy restaurants that you see on tv and really really want in your town. and now maryville has it. and its sad because i cant just walk to it once a week like my friends do. theres a place called The Capital too. its a little cafe type of place inside this old movie theater. you can have parties and watch old movies there and stuff in the back. its really really classy-cool. i want it!

i have a feeling that tomorrow ill wake up and look around fort wayne and realize, hey! im in lame-o fort wayne again! what will i do with myself? im thinking that maybe i should go scoping about for something new that ive never noticed before. i can open my eyes and maybe see a little book store on the corner or a unnoticed coffeeshop. im going to try and bring life to my life in this little corny state.

however, im still afraid that after that amazing weekend of reliving the memories ill fall into a slump. but im determined not to let that happen. i miss tennessee already so itll be pretty hard but im going to do my best. i hate being depressed. who doesnt? so im going to try and look on the upside and figure out a way to get back down there. and im going to try and live the best i can here. no matter how shabby it is compared to small town maryville.

i love you. do you feel the same too?

ashleyy