Wednesday, December 24, 2008
wowowowowowwowowow
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
what happened?
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Do you ever get that mean red feeling?
i think i do
i love you
ashleyy
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
thanks for missing me
i love you
ashleyy
Monday, November 17, 2008
im making a list, hell ill check it twice, of all the things youve done in my life
Sunday, November 9, 2008
destroy the worries, play in the leaves
Monday, November 3, 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
those damn believers in a better tomorrow
i love you
ashleyy
Monday, October 27, 2008
well make this short and sweet
ashleyy
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
ahh the life of a woman
ashleyy
Monday, October 20, 2008
a twisted little red
And she was absolutely right.He ate her up in one big bite.But Grandmamma was small and tough,And Wolfie wailed, ``That's not enough!I haven't yet begun to feelThat I have had a decent meal!''He ran around the kitchen yelping,``I've got to have a second helping!''Then added with a frightful leer,``I'm therefore going to wait right hereTill Little Miss Red Riding HoodComes home from walking in the wood.''He quickly put on Grandma's clothes,(Of course he hadn't eaten those).He dressed himself in coat and hat.He put on shoes, and after thatHe even brushed and curled his hair,Then sat himself in Grandma's chair.In came the little girl in red.She stopped. She stared. And then she said,
``What great big ears you have, Grandma.''``All the better to hear you with,'' the Wolf replied.``What great big eyes you have, Grandma.''said Little Red Riding Hood.``All the better to see you with,'' the Wolf replied.
He sat there watching her and smiled.He thought, I'm going to eat this child.Compared with her old GrandmammaShe's going to taste like caviar.
Then Little Red Riding Hood said, ``But Grandma,what a lovely great big furry coat you have on.''
``That's wrong!'' cried Wolf. ``Have you forgotTo tell me what BIG TEETH I've got?Ah well, no matter what you say,I'm going to eat you anyway.''The small girl smiles. One eyelid flickers.She whips a pistol from her knickers.She aims it at the creature's headAnd bang bang bang, she shoots him dead.A few weeks later, in the wood,I came across Miss Riding Hood.But what a change! No cloak of red,No silly hood upon her head.She said, ``Hello, and do please noteMy lovely furry wolfskin coat.''
ashleyy
my parents are hilarious, really
so i went through the day today not feeling too well. when i got home i was more than ready for a nice long nap to recharge before i did my homework. i went to sleep around 6 and was planning on taking an hour nap.
as you know, these days it gets harder and harder to tell days from night. well my parents thought it would be funny to walk around the house and change all the clocks to say 8 am instead of 8 pm. so i woke up and started freaking out because i was late for school and i hadnt done any of my homework or anything. and i wandered around the house because noone was home. and then i left a few colorful messages on both of my parents answering machines because noone picks up of course.
it took about 30 minutes for me to realize that it was actually still monday. im still a little confused even though i straightened everything out. i dont really know what to do with myself and i cant think sraight. oh parents can be a laugh. let me tell you.
quick! yo late for school!
haha try living it
i love you!
ashleyy
Saturday, October 18, 2008
evidently ive been tagged =]
ashleyy
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
green giants and a colorful tomorrow
ashleyy
Thursday, October 9, 2008
and the world is dark blue
thats pretty much what my thoughts are right now. a whole big jumbled mess of emotions and hopes and dreams and who knows what the hell else.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
welp
ugh im quite hormonal today
will you love me?
ashleyy
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
watch the clouds
tell me, what do you see?
ashleyy
Monday, October 6, 2008
creative like a five year old
katie doesnt stop at anything. she tries anything new (for instance her fabulously drastic new haircut). im not gonna lie, ive always envied her for her talent and seemingly endless mind. i think its actually given me something to go for. not even kidding you, when im in art class and im trying to think up a new idea, in the back of my mind i kind of think ,"hmm what would katie do?". it sucks because we arent really that good of friends this year, but shes always been an inspiration. shes the one who actually got me started on this blog. so id just like to say thanks katie, because i dont think i ever have.
ashleyy
Sunday, October 5, 2008
wild thang, you make my heart sang
i just love finding new things to add to my neverending itunes library. it gives me a thrill what can i say? I found TV/TV which reminds me of Cobra Starship and we all know how much i love THEM. They recorded their new EP with Zack Odom and Kenneth Mount from All Time Low and Cartel. i also found Action Item, Crosstown Rivalry, and plenty of other bands to look up and add to my ipod. pretty soon im gonna run out of room. never good. but im sure ill figure something out.
im in a really good mood today. i have nothing to do at all but be lazy and go with the flow. maybe ill do something with katie. we havnt hung out in a while. hmm.
well i might blog about something more interesting later tonight. i was just struck with a sudden blog mood. check out the new tunes loves. =]
Friday, October 3, 2008
interview with a lemming
by James Thurber
The weary scientist, tramping through the mountains of northern Europe in the winter weather dropped his knapsack and prepared to sit on a rock.
"Careful, brother," said a voice.
"Sorry," murmured the scientist, noting with some surprise that a lemming which he had been about to sit on had addressed him. "It is a source of considerable astonishment to me," said the scientist, sitting down beside the lemming, "that you are capable of speech."
"You human beings are always astonished," said the lemming, "when any other animal can do anything you can. Yet there are many things animals can do that you cannot, such as stridulate, or chirr, to name just one. To stridulate, or chirr, one of the minor achievements of the cricket, your species is dependent on the intestines of sheep and the hair of the horse."
"We are a dependent animal," admitted the scientist.
"You are an amazing animal," said the lemming.
"We have always considered you rather amazing, too," said the scientist. "You are perhaps the most mysterious of creatures."
"If we are going to indulge in adjectives beginning with 'm,' said the lemming sharply, "let me apply a few to your species--murderous, maladjusted, maleficent and muffle-headed."
"You find our behavior as difficult to understand as we do yours?"
"You, as you would say, said it," said the lemming. "You kill, you mangle, you torture, you imprison, you starve each other. You cover the nurturing earth with cement, you cut down elm trees to put up institutions for people driven insane by the cutting down of elm trees, you--"
"You could go on all night like that," said the scientist, "listing our sins and shames."
"I could go on all night and up to four o'clock tomorrow afternoon," said the lemming. "It just happens that I have made a lifelong study of the self-styled higher animal. Except for one thing, I know all there is to know about you, and a singularly dreary, dolorous and distasteful store of information it is, too, to use only adjectives that begin with 'd.'"
"You say you have made a lifelong study of my species--" began the scientist.
"Indeed I have," broke in the lemming. "I know that you are cruel, cunning and carnivorous, sly, sensual and selfish, greedy, gullible and guileful--"
"Pray don't wear yourself out," said the scientist, quietly. "It may interest you to know that I have made a lifelong study of lemmings, just as you have made a lifelong study of people. Like you I have found but one thing about my subject which I don't understand."
"And what is that?" asked the lemming.
"I don't understand," said the scientist, "why you lemmings all rush down to the sea and drown yourselves."
"How curious," said the lemming. "The one thing I don't understand is why you human beings don't."
but remember, i love you
ashleyy
Thursday, October 2, 2008
would someone like to tell me
ashleyy
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
nonononononoNO
not now
not when everything is going just the way it should
i am NOT losing another best friend
let alone my two only ones living near me at the same time
NO my life is finally perfect
i dont want it to change
i swear im going to punch their father as hard as i can repeatedly in the throat
NO
ugh i hope you love me because i need it right now
ashleyy
yeah were both little people and we like it that way
i love you, do you love me too?
ashleyy
Monday, September 29, 2008
tonight i am the drug you can't deny
all time low is definitly another playlist must-have (haha this is for you janna). their souls just come out of their music and have a feel good feel to them. i dunno if that makes sense hah. oh well. but yeah. if you wanna know anything about atl just hit janna up. their lyrics are her bible. which is understandable since they are excellent of course. theyre amazing live. (and on the phone as jay jay knows). =]].
some people may not dig these alternative punk indie whatevertheyare bands. ahah im not good with genres sorry. a lot of people go for rap. i myself dont think its music. all it is is a beat which is a crucial part of music and all but it doesnt have a melody. and the singing is more talking in a fast pace to me. i dunno. thats just my opinion. if anyone is open for arguement then thats fine with me. sometimes disputes can be fun.
so yes lovelies thats my input on music. ill update that playlist eventually. im just lazy. haha. gimme your opinions. i like to hear them.
G-A-B-E IS COMIN FOR YOU
ashleyy
Thursday, September 25, 2008
go ask elvis
i miss tennessee really really bad though.
i hope youre as lucky as i am to have such amazing friends
i love you
ashleyy
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
ugh parents are annoying
i think i need to find another way to deal with my dad. maybe i should just not say anything and sit on my hands or something. oh and did i mention that i always get the incredibly strong urge to punch him in the throat? dont worry i never have. i would get my ass beaten. but anywho, i really dont want anymore stuff taken away. that would suck big time.
Friday, September 19, 2008
ITS HOMECOMING TIME!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
its the end of the world as we know it
Monday, September 15, 2008
BAHAHAHAH
Sunday, September 14, 2008
BREE BREE
Saturday, September 13, 2008
disconnected
Friday, September 12, 2008
sorry
Thursday, September 4, 2008
young love is fleeting
Monday, September 1, 2008
all drab to totally fab
Thursday, August 28, 2008
well my lovelies
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
puttin on the ritz
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
hmmm could things possibly be looking up?
i think so.
it just might take a little while to get into full swing.
some say fights make friendships closer.
i dunno if thatll happen this time but it could i guess.
2 DAYS!!
im pumped
i love you
havnt said that in a while
ashleyy
so it really pisses me off
because here i am unable to sleep because im so mad or upset or i dont even know. and shes glad that our friendship is over. she doesnt even care. and i really dont know why. because i honestly didnt do anything but try and get the friendship back together. she was always busy or whatever and i was always trying to get one day out of like three weeks to hang out. but she always ended up blowing me off. i really shouldnt even be upset. weve been falling apart for a while now. but it just infuriates me that she doesnt even care. at all. whatsoever. we were best friends once. shouldnt that make you feel SOMETHING? evidently not. i really really really need to try to go to sleep. i have school tomorrow morning. but ive woken up probably five times now. i just have too many confusing thoughts. i just dont understand how you can just drop your best friend in one day and then be happy about it and confident that the next day is going to be a great one. i just dont see how you can live with that and not say anything or explain anything.
if anyone knows please feel free to explain. i need it super badly. as you can probably tell by the last three posts in like two hours.
Monday, August 25, 2008
what really bothers me
is that my best friend doesnt even seem to miss me. i havnt truly talked to her for months. i have no idea whats happening in her life. i miss talking to her every day and knowing everything that went on and being able to tell her everything that went on with me. just that friend to friend connection always made my day. now we never even talk. she doesnt seem to realize what a big deal it is to me.
i dont seem to have a best friend anymore. i dont have anyone close by that i can really talk to anymore. she was really all ive ever had now that i think about it. even when i lived in tennessee i never told anyone about what was really happening in my life. i just pretended to be happy and let my friends sadness stand for mine. i guess thats how its supposed to be though since the whole best friend thing didnt seem to work out. maybe im not supposed to have a best friend. maybe im just supposed to be a best friend to others and move through life with a lot of close but not all the way friends. maybe thats just how its supposed to be for me.
im all upset right now. its because of something stupid too. something i think in the back of my mind i was hoping for. though i dont want to admit it because its extremely selfish of me. but im upset that it happened because i expected her to tell me about it. i guess im upset because its what truly marked that we arent best friends anymore. i think ive known it for a while now but ive been brushing it off as something stupid. but now i need to accept that its true and move on.
i guess i only have two best friends of the four left in my life right now. i just wish they were close enough to talk to in person. three more days. three more days until i can talk it out to someone i know will listen and understand.
ashleyy
Sunday, August 24, 2008
bad yet good
so today/ yesterday was very dramatic for me. theres some crap with katie thats definitly pissing me off. she doesnt even think she did anything though no matter how much i try and explain to her that she did.
during school the other day she invited me to hang out with her and caylin on saturday so i said ok and for her to call me or whatever with plans. and so i turned down the three plans that people invited me to do just so i could hang out with her and caylin. it was a big deal to me because i basically havnt really talked to her since warped tour so i was excited to finally get a chance to hang out and all that. and then saturday came and there was still no call so i texted her and asked her what the plans were. and she said "there arent any" and so i said well will there be any? and she said "no nobody can do anything" and so i said "well i can" and she said "well its too late now" and it was 7:00 which is definitly not late at all. i mean the suns still up for another two hours. and so i was like well that sounds a little fishy but hey whatever she probably isnt allowed. and then i was talking to janna and i threw in there that katie and i were supposed to hang out and stuff but she cancelled and how shes been acting weird lately and all that jazz. and then janna was like well i have to call her anyway so ill talk to her about it.
so later janna called me back and told me that katie was acting really weird. she said that katie had said she was at someones house but she wouldnt tell her whose house she was at and something about zach coming over. so im thinking that that sounds a little odd to me. and so i text katie about it and ask her what the deal is and she keeps trying to tell me that there are no plans. and she eventually tells me that she went over to caylins house to swim. well that definitly sounds like plans to me. and that definitly sounds like a big ass lie too. and she doesnt seem to understand why im mad. wouldnt you be mad if your "best friend" invited you somewhere and then told you plans were cancelled but they really werent? i think so.
its not really the fact that i wasnt invited that bugs me. if she would have told me "hey caylin can only have me over" or whatever i would have been like "hey ok" because caylin hasnt liked me before and ive lived. but when she lies to me about it completely and goes out of her way to make sure i dont find out, its gonna piss me off a little bit. that and the fact that over the whole entire summer i only talked to her a few times and then i was expecting to be good friends again over the school year but nothing has happened. every time i try to talk to her she doesnt really talk and only talks to caylin. the only things i know about her life i learn from other people or her blog. that doesnt sound like a really close friendship to me. i want to hear about her life from her personally like i used to. but i guess theres absolutely nothing i can do about it. ill just have to find new friends. ive done it before and i can do it again.
theres your explaination katie. have fun with caylin.
ashleyy
ahh i almost forgot to mention the good.
i got to speak to my favorite people in the world many times today. just their goofy, peppy mood got mine up a lot. im still super upset about the whole katie thing of course but they got me to forget about it for quite a long time. im so excited to see them. but then again im afraid. once i get there i wont want to leave. when i get back i have a feeling im going to be in a depressed slump. thats never good. maybe something miraculous will happen and i wont have to leave. hmm lets hope for something crazy and out of the ordinary that can turn my life around. i guess i can only wait. 4 DAYS!!!!
with all this excitement the past seems to fade
once again
ashleyy out
Saturday, August 23, 2008
lies, betrayal, bitter hate
we once were friends but its too late
the good times are past
now the bad come at last
the trust is broken
it wont come again
and neither will our friendship
its come to an end
that pretty much sums it up right now
asdlkfmf
i just dont know anymore
my life seems to be falling apart
i cant even think straight
i can hardly breathe
i wish i lived in tennessee
hate me
ashleyy
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
HAPPY ONE MONTHHHH!
ok so this is quite an exciting day! its the one month anniversary of this blog. and to be honest, when i started i didnt think it would last this long. i usually tend to forget about these things. buut i guess everyones wrong at some point! and thank god i was. lets just hope it keeps on going.
well i would like to write something to give this blogging day a big SHABANG but its late and i have to wake up at 5:30 for school tomorrow. yip-di-do. so i will write a better blog tomorrow to make up for this sucky one which should be spectacular. check it later lovelies!
love you all and i hope youve loved me!
ashleyy
Sunday, August 17, 2008
daw. i love my alex
so i called alex today and it made me really happy. i got to talk to my best friend who i havnt talked to in quite a while. we recapped and talked about stuff that was bugging us and talked about what were gonna do when i come visit. and we talked about how the kid who is stalking her is acctually his creepy grandpa who thinks they have a lot in common and wants to make sweet passionate old man love to her. hehe. quite exciting.
but yes. overall this has been a pretty good day. well except my dad whos a complete ass 24-7. buuut im getting used to it. well thats all i can think of today
i love you my favorite tennessean, indianese, and random worldwide friends!
ashleyy
Saturday, August 16, 2008
fuck regret, lets burn this city down
im in an odd mood today. well ive been in this mood a while now acctually. i cant really put it into words but im going to try. i think its a kind of loneliness or something. i feel empty. i need something or someone to fill me. i dont know. i just need someone who i know is there for sure. i have friends of course. but lately it seems theyve been disconnected with me. even with school starting and i see them every day. i just have a bad feeling about something that hasnt happened yet but will happen. or maybe it has. i just dont know.
oh well. at least i have something to look forward to and distract me from this mood at least for a moment. i get to go to my favorite place in the world. tennessee! i get to see my best friends who have always and will always be there for me. i get to skip school on friday and stay until monday since its laborday weekend. that means that i get to go to the alcoa football game. its the biggest game of the season so allll of my friends will be there. im so excited! i just hope my mom doesnt freak and decide not to go. and i hope that katie can go. so im going to just think of that through the next week and have it be what keeps me going.
oh and theres this guy that i just cant shake out of my mind. ugh. not good.
i need a guy though. really bad. any takers?
i love you!
ashleyy
Sunday, August 10, 2008
falling rain and clean-cut grass
Today there was a quick downpour of rain. then suddenly it was all cleared and i had an incredible urge to ride my bike. it was one of the most refreshing bikerides ive ever taken.
i just love the irresistable smell of the air after it rains. everything smells fresh and sweet. as i rode down the trail to my bridge, i noticed how much greener and more colorful everything looked. it was like the reain rinsed away the dust and pollon that was covering the beauty underneath. everything seemed fresh and new. maybe thats what my life needs.
i already have had my sin rinsed away by God. so thats not what i mean here. i just think i need a new start. get all of these troubles and things out of my mind. i want to start with a clean slate and let what happens to me happen. brush off the things that cause me pain and focus on the things that bring me joy. im going to look deeper into life and figure out what the deal is. im going to try and be more optimistic.
lets see how this new way of thinking works out.
i heart you
ashleyy
Friday, August 8, 2008
life is a garden, dig it.
Well the friend drama up in indiana is pretty much gone now. but you can never have a dramaless life. i guess that if there wasnt anything at all then life would get pretty dull. not that drama is a good thing certainly not. but it can end up being a good thing in the end. you can have closer friendships, some life experience, and something to look back and even laugh at. but during the drama we get so caught up in trying to solve it we sometimes overlook the easy way out. all you can really do is forgive and forget. because nobody likes losing friends.
Right now in tennessee theres a lot of drama. im trying to help my friends through it from all the way up here in corn land which is no easy task. though i guess its kind of good that im up here during this arguement with pretty much all of my friends. it makes me unbiased and lets me see both sides of the story. i hope that i can help them work everything out. if they stopped being friends, i dont know what i would do. i cant even image a world with janna and alex hating each other. its pretty much impossible for me. theyre my support together. yeah they do an excellent job by themselves. but sometimes its easier to be caught when you have four arms to catch you instead of just two. so i hope that all of this can go away as easily as those other fights have.
Well enough of this drama talk. i dont want to get the reputation of the drama queen of the blogger world do i? schools almost here and i think im ready. i went the other day for registration and found my classes and my locker and all that jazz. i realized that i have some slacker classes this year which im excited about. though i do have two hard math classes which im dreading. least favorite subject fersher. im more of a words person.
Well i have many things to do today. theyre all pretty easy and fun though but they still must get done! i have to decorate my folders with snazzy stuff and i have to do that stupid online health class thing. oh and then at 3 im going to the mall. yay! im definitly diggin in the garden of life.
peas out
ashleyy
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
please tell me
a person should have the right to end an unhealthy relationship without getting crap about it and losing all of their other friends shouldnt they? just give me a little support here. i just need to know that someones there for me.
thank god for janna and alex
ashleyy
drama drama drama, when will it all end so i can post a REAL blog
yes readers i am truly sorry that the last few blogs have been a little, well, lacking interesting info. ive been having some rough times in this hell of a life and need a vent. sooo here it is.
sadly my exfriend found that "free at last" blog and posted it everywhere she possibly could just to make me seem like the bad guy. which i definitly am not. all i wanted was to get out of a bad friendship and end it quietly. but i guess she has to end everything with a bang. lucky me lucky me. i just hope i dont lose anyone who truly mean something to me through all of this. except maybe it would be a good thing. it could help me figure out who my true friends are. i guess ill just see what the next move is in this currently unhappy life of mine.
yes i say unhappy but do i mean it? i really have been in a better mood lately now that im not dealing with the debate in my head of whether or not to drop a bad friend. the only thing thats bringing me down is the whole thing about her trying to ruin my life. that can put a damper on anyones good mood. then theres also another little story about some guy. ugh wont even go into that confusing territory. buut anyways. i am pretty excited about the whole school starting thing. i know what a geek right? but i cant wait to see my friends (hopefully ill still have some after all this is over) and get back into the swing of things. maybe after we get caught up into all the schoolwork and tight schedules all this will just go away. thats what i hope.
i was hoping that sophomore year would be the best year ever. i read that as jannas goal and it inspired me to make it mine. although this summer has been drama packed and it will most likely reflect on the rest of the year too. there goes my goal! oh well. im still going to try and push through and not make a mess of my life. im just going to try and get great grades and do good in tennis and keep the friends i have got. hello school year, here i come.
remember i love you,
ashleyy
Monday, August 4, 2008
ASLKNMALDKSNFNADSF
MY LOVERS JANNA FEDERER AND ALEX CAWTHORN MIGHT POSSIBLY BE COMING TO SEE MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
woah geeze thats all i can get out right now
im so excited!
love you guys
ashleyy
Sunday, August 3, 2008
free at last, free at last, great god almighty, i am free at last
that grueling, neverending, bitchtastic (alex's word), terrible friendship that i was taking all that abuse from is FINALLY over. shes out of my life at last and moving on to her next victom. i just hope its one of my friends. watch out. shell getcha.
i love you fans and true friends
ashleyy
Take a chance on the tight rope baby
I WENT TO FUCKING WARPED TOUR!!!!!!!!! IT WAS SPECTACULAR!!!
yes that is the highlight of todays blog. oh yeah and sorry ive been slacking a bit in the blogging realm. its been what? a week? i dunno but im getting back on track.
warped had to be one of the greatest experiences of my life. i got to meet a ton of small bands and even some big ones. i found some new music that makes me happy and got to meet a delicious hot sweaty man. mmm. i got my shoe signed by cobra starship and all time low. i gave my best friend the happiest day in her life by letting her talk on the phone with every member of all time low. that made me really happy. i was seriously shaking. i also got a hug from cobra starships gabe and victoria complemented me on my shoelaces. and i befriended the we the kings merch guy. those were the highlights of the day probably.
i also got to hear the heavenly tones of we the kings, all time low, cobra starship, the academy is, charlotte sometimes, angels and airwaves, anberlin, and other various bands. it was excellent. cobra starship, we the kings, and all time low were definitly the faves. i had very few dissappointments over the day. we didnt have time to see motion city soundtrack which was sad. and i didnt get travis to sign my shoe even though i chased him down. that was extremely sad. oh and the heat was unbearable. jeans was a bad idea, no matter how amazing they looked. but in the end it was one of the most exciting days of my life.
the night before was an adventure. it was extremely exausting. we all (jennifer, lauren, katie, kelsey, and i) all stayed the night at kelseys house so we could leave early the next morning. kelsey is neighbors with jc who can be a pretty cool kid but jennifer doesnt like him. so at about 1 in the morning everyone snuck out to go see him but jennifer and i stayed back at the house. they ended up coming back at 2 completely drunk. mostly uhm we'll call her howard though. wow she was trashed. i wasnt exactly surprised though. i had a feeling something was up. but i was surprised and extremly dissappointed when uhh bertha came back stumbling and slurring.
i had always thought she was smart enough to stay straightedge and avoid all that crap and peer pressure. shes an extremely strong person who usually knows whats good for her. it made me really upset. whats the world coming to when the strongest person you know gives in to something that is really really stupid? i guess i just have too high of expectations for people. i dunno. but later she told me shes always drank but not often. that upset me too that she didnt even tell me being my best friend and all. but i guess everyone makes mistakes and gets into crap. so im willing to forgive her though in the back of my mind ill always remember how she dissapointed me. it shouldnt get in the way of our friendship though. i wont let it. im sick of losing friends and getting in fights over stupid stuff. so im going to do my best to get this stuff ive written down on this page out of my mind.
back to howard. she is a really really funny drunk. im not gonna lie. shes already a funny person so when you add not having a clue as to what shes doing it makes it hilarious. but then later after the humor was gone, she started throwing up and such. she drinks a lot and can usually hold her alcohol, but i guess it was just a little too much. she had never thrown up before now from it and it scared her to death. she thought she was going to die and she sat there for hours, head over the toilet, not being able to move at all except for the uncontrollable shaking. it was terrible and we all felt for her. so we stayed up until 4ish in the morning holding her hair and caring for her. but we definitly werent going to leave one of our best friends sides. we just dont work that way. we finally got her to go to sleep and got her through the night. she was still buzzed the next day which was pretty amusing but she puked a few times. not so good.
even with all these setbacks it was an exciting few days. i tightened up some friendships, mostly with jennifer. and i loosened one that im thinking might be a good idea to loosen a little bit. no matter how much i hate losing friends. i just hope that everything works out with everything and this soon to start school year will be great and ill always have this excellent memory of warped tour.
love to fans and friends,
ashleyy